〃What hurts the most？

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone

Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret

But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryïn to do

I was so wrong...so damn wrong!

I thought it could be something between us. The way he act when he was around me, the smile he had on his face anytime his eyes was meeting mines. Why did he do that? Just for fun? Just for the feeling of beeing liked by all the girls around him?? Then I can say that I played with his feelings too...but then it would be a lie.
So, now he is happy, with a girl that loves him, maybe even more than I'd do? We'll never found this out. So pity, I'm such a fool, I should fight for what I want, right? But well, I think that I just want his happiness, even if I'm not the reason behind that happiness...
Now, our eyes will not be that sparkles anymore when they meet. I'll never can see him with the same eyes that I used to...

The words marked with the purple-pink (i don't know what) color are some of the ingriedents you will find in love.